| Closing Cycles |
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| 10:33am 18/11/2008 |
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“One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through… None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time, not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us… Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away…
Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life. Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust. Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.”
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| After A Long While |
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| 10:23am 14/11/2008 |
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I haven't written in this blog for almost a year now. How time flies so fast. A lot has happened too. There are days I wake up feeling a bit bruised and broken. My friend sent me this forwarded message over text and I just want to share:
"After a while you learn...the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul. And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning...And company doesn't always mean security...and you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts...and presents aren't promises...and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead...with the grace of a man, not the grief of a child...and you learn to build all your roads on today...because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans...and futures have a way of falling down in midflight...after a while you learn that even sunshine burns when you get too much...so you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers...and you learn that you can really endure...you really are strong...you really do have worth...and you learn...and you learn with every goodbye...you learn."
*sigh*
I learned. |
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| I Trust. |
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| 09:43am 29/01/2008 |
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mood:  chipper
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I trust that I will get what I truly deserve.
I trust that I will get out of this uncertain situation stronger, wiser and happier.
I trust that nothing is a coincidence and the whole experiece has a deeper purpose.
I trust that it will come. Just the way I imagined it to be.
I trust.
Ngayon pa lang...I thank God for those above because I KNOW they will happen. It is just a matter of time. Just a matter of time. |
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| Insights for a New Way of Living |
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| 03:46pm 11/01/2008 |
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mood:  contemplative
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My good friend lent me his favorite book of all time. He said that the book will supplement the new awareness that the LEAP program has given me. When he handed me the book I told myself..."wow this is a thin book. I can read this in 2-3 hours". Oh boy I was wrong!
The book he handed me was a book written by OSHO entitled "Freedom: The Courage to be Yourself"
The book is only 165 pages. It seemed nothing compared to the law books I used to read that were as think as bricks. I'm on the final chapter of the book now and the book has been with me for 6 days. For some reason I can't read it continuously. The author challenges one's present belief systems and structures. No wonder the CIA poisoned him.
The book really provides new insights. Some are so new that I had to stop myself from reading or I had to re-read a couple of paragraphs before moving on.
I would like to share a line that I really liked, "No revolutionary should be given the power- because he knows how to sabotage but he does not know how to create, he only knows how to destroy. He should be honored, respected, given gold medals and everything, but don't give him power."
All in all, it was a very interesting read. If you want a book that would make you think...I think you should pick this one up.
A note though...bawal ang mga pikon magbasa ng librong ito. |
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| Successful LEAP |
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| 09:08am 17/12/2007 |
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mood: nostalgic
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The past weekened was simply remarkable. In the hills of antipolo I spent my last days with my coach, my council and my dearest LEAP* team 34. We all finished 100% with our professionals and personal goals. It was a first in LEAP history. We were the biggest team with the brightest accomplishments. Everyone was beaming with pride. I lost my voice because of all the shouting! The odd thing was when someone would ask why individually and as a group we finished 100% despite the challenges the answer was not hardwork but LOVE.
Love made it happen.
A group of strangers grew together in 70 days. Broke down walls and built bridges. I've never felt my heart grow so big. I met 74 remarkable, loving and powerful men and women. To us, leadership wasn't about winning. It was caring for the people around you.
The whole experiece gave me two important gifts...Love and forgiveness. These two things were definitely bigger than myself. These words mean so different to me now...perhaps because I finally made it part of my life.
Dreams do come true. Happiness is indeed a choice. And suffering is ALWAYS optional.
Cheers to Love! Cheers to success! Cheers to the World's Greatest LEAP Team 34!
*LEAP- Leadership Excellence Achievement Program (www.occiseminars.com) |
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| Bawal Ma-attach. Bawal ma-in love. |
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| 09:53pm 27/05/2007 |
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mood:  crazy
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Bawal bawal bawal.
isipin mo na lang kung andyan pa sya pagkatpos ng lahat ng ito eh di para sya sa iyo.
Magmahalan kayo bilang magkaibigan. Yun at yun lang.
Wag mo lokohin ang sarili mo na ito ay mag-wo-work out. Dahil nagkakamali ka.
maraming beses ka na nagkamali. Matalino kang bata. Alam mo na kung magiging palpak lang ang mga bagay-bagay.
magpigil. Isara ang puso. Gamitin ang utak.
Bawal magmahal pag-bar review. Bawal. |
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| Loving It |
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| 12:03am 29/11/2006 |
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mood: cheerful
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I just came home from Old Spaghetti House. Dinner with blockmates is just wonderful nowadays!
Grabe, I'm loving every difficult or fun minute of fourth year. The end is so near I just embrace it.
I'll miss my blockmates so bad after grad. |
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| Bujay Bajboy |
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| 07:20pm 02/11/2006 |
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mood:  bored
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Sembreak na. Ewan ko ba kung bakit pakiramdam ko ang panget ko pag sembreak. Siguro wala kasing dahilan para mag-ayos. Walang dress code. Walang make up. Wala. Nasa bajay lang ako. Bujay Bajboy! Kain, tulog, ligo, tv, internet. Pa-ulit-ulit. Dalawang araw na ganito. Bukas sa palagay ko kailangan ko na lumabas ng bajay.
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| You Are 40% Girly | 
You are a pretty hardcore tomboy, and a very free spirit.
Gender roles be dammed, you like to do things your way. |
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| Tomorrow is the day I will be free |
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| 07:57pm 24/10/2006 |
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tomorrow is the last exam. my mind is tired and my body is battered.
I just want to get it over with so that I can chill, sleep, gym, run, sing and dance without caring what time of the day it is.
There are a few things that I'm planning to do over the sembreak:
- building something
- buy a guitar
- watch gigs of bands I like
- go to the beach
- bake
- eat chicken isaw at UPD |
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| I Want To Learn |
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| 12:07pm 12/10/2006 |
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mood:  creative
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The finals week is just a few days away and here I am blogging. My mind has been floating. I've been imagining of the things I'd love to do after I take the bar. I know it's like looking too far into the future but then I CAN'T WAIT FOR MY LIFE to begin. I can't wait to have time to do the things I really want to do.
I'm so excited that in fact I'm gonna start learning new things by next sem until I take the bar. I've always wanted to learn how to play the guitar. When I was a kid I had piano lessons. However, the piano isn't exactly the most portable musical instrument. So over the semrbeak I plan to buy myself a guitar. My sister has one but since she's left handed I can't use her guitar cuz she had the strings re-arranged for her needs.
D has volunteered to teach me the basics. I'm looking forward to spending a few hours a week learning something new...something that isn't academic.
Here are a few other things I plan to learn before I turn 30:
-learn a foreign language
-learn sign language
-learn how to dance better (like salsa, foxtrot, samba, tango) |
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| Quits |
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| 01:39pm 26/09/2006 |
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mood:  weird
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Quits na kami.
Its empowering but it feels empty. |
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| LSS na toh! |
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| 04:27pm 21/09/2006 |
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mood: mellow
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FOREVER BLUE
Cacai Velasquez
Used to like the sound of the rain
And feel your arms around me
Together we go insane,
But I wake up to where I should be
I've longed for the wind,
They touch me through my feelings
And you'll never know till they begin,
What you want is really what it means
CHORUS:
Don't wanna be forever blue
'Cause I deserve some love that's true
Finding it the hard way
And wishing for it everyday
I guess I was wrong to want you, yeah
'Cause I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid
To be forever blue
Gonna find some other guy for me
This time it will be just like the wind
Coming at the time it must be
And blowing to where I should be
I've longed for the wind,
They touch me through my feelings
And you'll never know till they begin,
What you want is really what it means
CHORUS:
Don't wanna be forever blue
'Cause I deserve some love that's true
Finding it the hard way
And wishing for it everyday
I guess I was wrong to want you, yeah
'Cause I'm afraid, I'm afraid, yeah, I'm afraid
To be forever blue
BRIDGE:
Don't wanna be alone
I need someone to hold on to
And share my dreams with a love
A love that's always true
CHORUS:
Don't wanna be forever blue
'Cause I deserve some love that's true
Finding it the hard way
And wishing for it everyday
I guess I was wrong to want you, yeah
'Cause I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid
To be forever
I guess I was wrong to want you, yeah
'Cause I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid
To be forever
'Cause I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid
To be forever, woh |
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| Tiring Tuesday |
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| 08:43pm 19/09/2006 |
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mood: contemplative
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its almost 9pm and i'm still in school.
The meeting at the publication office starts at 9pm. My day started at 6:30. Waking up before 9am is probably one of the things I hate to do because it means my day is stretched and so is my limited patience and energy.
When it rains it really pours. We had to go to the Paranaque RTC for a direct examination of our murder witness. The whole morning was spent waiting for our turn. The direct examination and cross examination only lasted 20 minutes. I was thrilled to be watching "court" action. I told myself..."wow, this is what I'm actually going to do IF I decide to practice law."
Indeed it is an exciting life but the stresses that come with it is something I'm not sure I'm ready to face on an everyday basis. I admire the PAO lawyer, who happens to be a good acquaintance of mine from ateneo law, for his dedication to do his job...defending those who cannot afford counsel. He handles at least 10 cases a day every single day! Indeed it is good training cuz you have no choice but to do it.
After our trip to Court I found myself sleeping at the LSAC for more than and hour. I was dead tired. To top it off I was called to recite on BOTH subjects for today. God was kind enough to have guided me and let me do okay considering that I did only one reading for both subjects. I am very thankful. In a while I would be trying to write my article for the school paper. haaayy...this is a very tiring day.
Nevertheless I am happy. I think all this work is God's way of telling me to think of the more important things and not the petty things that my idle mind is usally preoccupied with.
I've been praying for God to help me to find contentment and fulfillment from within. I hope my prayer will be answered soon. If not, then I shall wait. |
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| I'm A Rooster!!! |
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| 06:59pm 15/09/2006 |
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mood: cheerful
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I looked myself up in this Chinese Astrology thing AND apparently I was born under the year of the Rooster. It says:
"The Rooster (Candour): Funny, witty and efficient, fundamentally entertaining, often performing to the point of attention seeking. Given to vanity, sociable, has the ability to appear interesting even when short on personality. Strong-willed, generous to friends. Deep inside anxious and worried."
Salient qualities: Industrious, headstrong and committed.
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WOW! that sounds a lot like me. hahaha. |
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| Sad News |
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| 08:40pm 05/09/2006 |
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'Crocodile Hunter' Irwin Killed by Stingray
Associated Press
Sept. 4, 2006 — Steve Irwin, the hugely popular Australian television personality and conservationist known as the "Crocodile Hunter," was killed Monday by a stingray while filming off the Great Barrier Reef. He was 44.
Irwin was at Batt Reef, off the remote coast of northeastern Queensland state, shooting a segment for a series called "Ocean's Deadliest" when he swam near one of the animals, which have a poisonous barb on their tails, his friend and colleague John Stainton said.
"He came on top of the stingray and the stingray's barb went up and into his chest and put a hole into his heart," said Stainton, who was on board Irwin's boat at the time.
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I was very upset when I heard the news yesterday from my classmates at around 5pm. I couldn't believe it. I was in denial. Steve Irwin is one of my heros. In fact in my friendster he is one of those I would want to meet in person. The uncle I'm closest to is about to move to australia this month and I was planning that when I would visit them I'd go to the Zoo Irwin owns and manages.
THis morning I went to the gym. I turned on the TV to watch CNN and BBC. I found myself crying over the death of steve irwin.
I'm such a fan of his show. In fact when I dont have class and I have cable tv I make sure that I get to watch animal planet. I've previously "wikipedia-ed" him before just to read about him and his wife and family.
Everyone will die. I guess he was lucky in a way that he died while doing what he loves doing best...while making a wildlife documentary. |
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